[And he'll just. stop whinging and drink his own tea too. But he's clearly glancing at Yuri like he's waiting for him to follow that up with something else. A "buuuut" or something.]
Other people usually find creative ways to insult me, or to ignore me if I ramble too much. So, thank you for treating me frankly. I do appreciate that.
Frank is what I do. And don't get me wrong, I can be an asshole like the next person.
Again, I'd tell you if I wasn't interested. Killing a passion just because you're not personally interested is stupid -- I'd rather you told someone else than waste that enthusiasm if wasn't one hundred per cent invested.
[ he doesn't have a lot he's passionately invested in outside of his dream, however he tries to go about it, and surviving the war. ]
You know, that's part of why I always stayed out of romances. Putting yourself out there like that is terrifying, when you know the other person might not be as interested as you are.
[The lore of why Luca is all bang and no feelings. Offered up because he has half a feeling for Yuri.]
That's how it is with anything though. Friendships, partnerships, anything else that requires you being close to someone.
[ he's been on the other side of that, although mostly it's just ... him using someone who's using him. it's fine? ] Whether you do or not, well... that's up to you.
Surrounding yourself with people's not bad. When you have the same goals and dreams, it helps. You're all working towards the same ends, so that unites you even if things aren't smooth sailing the whole way.
It sounds like you speak from experience. As expected, from a leader.
[And then, because Luca isn't thinking of it at that moment: from here to the first panel of page 20. I'm not sure if inner narration carries through, but the feeling it mentions is important there: that Luca used to always blend into the background easily, but now everyone wants his attention. But it's not because they want to get to know him, it's because they want something from him.]
I've certainly gotten experience lately. At least in this place people often want something I don't mind offering up. I don't know what I'll do when someone asks for something unreasonable.
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Date: 2021-02-24 11:50 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2021-02-25 12:17 am (UTC)[ c'mon luca. work through your anxiety brain you can do it. ]
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Date: 2021-02-25 12:46 am (UTC)[He's Trying. The anxiety is strong.]
I'm sorry, I really am. But I genuinely do like your company and don't want to scare you off.
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Date: 2021-02-25 01:22 am (UTC)[ siiiiiiiiiiip ]
I’m a big boy, I can voice my opinions all by myself. [ and so far he has not had the need to tell luca to stop? ]
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Date: 2021-02-25 01:28 am (UTC)[And he'll just. stop whinging and drink his own tea too. But he's clearly glancing at Yuri like he's waiting for him to follow that up with something else. A "buuuut" or something.]
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Date: 2021-02-25 11:19 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2021-02-25 01:23 pm (UTC)That just makes a small, genuine smile tug at the corner of his mouth.]
You truly are something else, you know.
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Date: 2021-02-25 05:16 pm (UTC)I'm really not.
[ he sets his teacup down. ]
I'm a product of what I deal with. Other people would step up in the same, or similar ways.
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Date: 2021-02-25 05:33 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2021-02-25 06:15 pm (UTC)Again, I'd tell you if I wasn't interested. Killing a passion just because you're not personally interested is stupid -- I'd rather you told someone else than waste that enthusiasm if wasn't one hundred per cent invested.
[ he doesn't have a lot he's passionately invested in outside of his dream, however he tries to go about it, and surviving the war. ]
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Date: 2021-02-25 06:28 pm (UTC)[The lore of why Luca is all bang and no feelings. Offered up because he has half a feeling for Yuri.]
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Date: 2021-02-25 07:16 pm (UTC)That's how it is with anything though. Friendships, partnerships, anything else that requires you being close to someone.
[ he's been on the other side of that, although mostly it's just ... him using someone who's using him. it's fine? ] Whether you do or not, well... that's up to you.
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Date: 2021-02-25 07:37 pm (UTC)[His gaze grows a bit distant.]
...I'd like to try, I think. Trusting someone like that. As a friend, a partner, anything. Being alone is rather, well, lonely.
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Date: 2021-02-25 07:58 pm (UTC)Surrounding yourself with people's not bad. When you have the same goals and dreams, it helps. You're all working towards the same ends, so that unites you even if things aren't smooth sailing the whole way.
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Date: 2021-02-25 08:21 pm (UTC)[And then, because Luca isn't thinking of it at that moment: from here to the first panel of page 20. I'm not sure if inner narration carries through, but the feeling it mentions is important there: that Luca used to always blend into the background easily, but now everyone wants his attention. But it's not because they want to get to know him, it's because they want something from him.]
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Date: 2021-02-25 08:51 pm (UTC)... Experience. More than anything. I've had people decide they wanted more from what was in my coffers, than what I and others wanted to achieve.
[ people who figured getting in the lord of the underworld's better books was a way to a better, easier time of it all.
he sighs though, finally acknowledging the memory in some way or form. ]
Honestly, I'm impressed it managed to hold off that long.
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Date: 2021-02-25 09:00 pm (UTC)[Luca your trust issues are showing.]
I've certainly gotten experience lately. At least in this place people often want something I don't mind offering up. I don't know what I'll do when someone asks for something unreasonable.
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Date: 2021-02-25 09:34 pm (UTC)...
You just say no. If there's nothing you want to offer up, and it's not worth what you can gain then you put your foot down.
[ because he can't afford to sometimes, he might as well make sure people know they can ]
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Date: 2021-02-25 11:45 pm (UTC)[It might need a bit more than "SWIPER NO SWIPING" if someone's coming after him with a murderous intent.]
But thank you, for worrying after me. I do appreciate that part.
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Date: 2021-02-25 11:58 pm (UTC)[ he wouldn't be happy voting for someone who killed in self defence. ]
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A little confidence goes a long way. Just remember that.
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Date: 2021-02-26 12:10 am (UTC)[I doubt his ability to kill in self-defense, but it's the thought that counts.]
I could just stay near you every weekend and call on you to be my knight in shining armor too.
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Date: 2021-02-26 12:19 am (UTC)[ hey, you never know what adrenaline could do ]
You'd have to get me to wake up first. [ it's... a serious point. ] Did you ever actually get some self defence lessons?
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Date: 2021-02-26 12:32 am (UTC)Not yet, no. Wrath wouldn't give me weapons.