[But then he's pulled down, and suddenly the weight of what he's tiptoeing around hits him.
For a moment, he hesitates. That dread, that sinking fear, it's creeping back in. The reservations that have always held him back before, they're whispering in his ear now.
It's safer to hold back, it's better to not stand out. If others have already decided what they want you to do, then it's better to just go along with that, isn't it? After all, it's better to keep your wants buried deep inside of your chest than it is to shout them out and be ignored. Living to the expectations of others means never having to put yourself out there and take that risk.
And in that moment, he hesitates, torn between risk and comfort.]
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Date: 2021-04-03 04:13 pm (UTC)For a moment, he hesitates. That dread, that sinking fear, it's creeping back in. The reservations that have always held him back before, they're whispering in his ear now.
It's safer to hold back, it's better to not stand out. If others have already decided what they want you to do, then it's better to just go along with that, isn't it? After all, it's better to keep your wants buried deep inside of your chest than it is to shout them out and be ignored. Living to the expectations of others means never having to put yourself out there and take that risk.
And in that moment, he hesitates, torn between risk and comfort.]